Wonderful are His Deeds

After resting for a week, proceeded with 2nd cycle of chemotherapy yesterday. Monday was a busy day for the doctor. There was a long queue, I waited for more than 1&1/2 hours before the scheduled time before seeing him.

The blood test report showed that the tumor marker CEA continued to remain low, at a reading of 1.2 (safe level <5). So, instead of the 3 cycles of chemo to do another scan, the doctor said I could do it after completing the 2nd cycle. He believed that "the cancerous cells have been whacked blue and black." What an amazing news! Our hearts were filled with thanksgiving to our God, truly He has done far more, beyond what we asked for.

Ephesians 3:20-21

²⁰ God is able to do much more than we ask or think through His power working in us. ²¹ May we see His shining-greatness in the church. May all people in all time honor Christ Jesus. Let it be so.New Life Version (NLV)   神能照著运行在我们心里的大力充充足足的成就一切，超过我们所求所想的。 
Eph 3:21  但愿他在教会中，并在基督耶稣里，得著荣耀，直到世世代代，永永远远。阿们！ 

Lately I have been meditating on the book of John, particularly on what Jesus proclaim Himself to be:

John 14:6
Jesus said, “I am the Way and the Truth and the Life. No one can go to the Father except by Me.  耶稣说: "我就是道路、真理、生命；若不藉著我，没有人能到父那里去。" 

John 6:63
It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh is no help at all. The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life.  叫人活著的乃是灵，肉体是无益的。我对你们所说的话就是灵，就是生命。 

The more I meditated on these verses, the more I was inviting the spirit to give me Life. Life brings wholeness, health, abundance etc. - all part and parcel of God's wonderful salvation. I believe all these contribute to my speedy recovery. And now I am praying that the same Spirit and Life would enable me to be free of all the side effects from the treatment. And of course, all the prayers that arises from different corner of the world, ascending to the throne of the Most High.

After the 1st cycle of chemo, my hair started to part from my scalp. I found hair on my pillow, room, each time I combed my hair, more hair dropped. I was neat a table one day and picked up something from the floor. Accidentally my head touched the table lightly when I stood up. Next moment, a chunk of hair was on the floor. There and then, I decided to visit a barber and shaved my head. Now, I can compete with my colleague to see who has a shinier bald head.

Psa 121:7  The LORD will protect you from all danger; he will keep you safe. 
Psa 121:8  He will protect you as you come and go now and forever. 
 耶和华要保护你，免受一切的灾害；他要保护你的性命。
 你出你入，耶和华要保护你，从今时直到永远。

Win another battle

Went for review with the colorectal surgeon on Apr 4. He checked the blood test results and found tumor marker to be high. He recommended a CT scan to be performed. The queue at the hospital was long, though I managed to brought the scan forward, I could only see the surgeon again early May.

It was somewhat disturbing. The way home from hospital was bright and sunny. I admired the scenery along the road and tried t make light of the situation.

At the nudging of my sis-in-law, we decided to see another oncologist at a private hospital. He quickly arranged to a consultation on the eve of Good Friday. His immediately arranged for PET scan, a more accurate form of scan on Monday Apr 9.

I have been praying hard and earnestly these few days. There was anxiety in the beginning, through the pray sessions, the peace came into my heart. I was given word from the Lord:

On Good Friday - Psa 107:20  He sent out his word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction. 20  他发命医治他们，救他们脱离死亡 (Most amazingly the same verse were sent by a dear sis and colleagues to me 2 days later)


Sat - Ps 75:3Psa 75:3  The earth and all its people are melting away; I hold up its pillars 3  地和其上的居民都消化了；我曾立了地的柱子
Psa 75:7  But God is the judge.....7  惟有神断定.....(God has the final say....)


Easter Day Psa 71:3  Be a rock of refuge for me, to which I may always go; You have commanded to save me; for You are my Rock and my Fortress. 3  求你作我常住的磐石；你已经命定要救我，因为你是我的岩石，我的山寨。 


Also the Lord showed me Luke 7 - the centurion's servant was healed at His command, and how by compassion He  raised the dead son of the widow.

On Monday the PET scan was performed in the morning. By 5pm, we were back to see the oncologist. Somehow, there was this peace reigning in my heart, as I kept my mind on the verse from Psalm 23: Surely goodness and mercies shall follow me all the days my life......The pastor had taught a day earlier to steady our spirit in God's word.

The doctor located some anomalies at the colorectal area from the scan. Good news is no spread to other area. And the doctor has managed to see some symptom to which a particular drug has proven effective. We agreed to proceed with treatment course and started chemotherapy on the Tues, Apr 10. There would be 2 sessions per month over the next 3 months. Another scan would follow then.

I thank God so far I have been feeling perfectly well after the chemo session. Truly, there is power in the Living Word. And Blessed assurance that I am healed by His stripes (Isa 53:5)!! I am reciting Psa 91:16  With long life I will satisfy him, and show him My salvation. 

The Wonderful PROMISE 奇妙的应许

I slept very well the night of Sep 16. The nurse came again and monitored my conditions. I slept soundly again thereafter. It was then I dreamed of a sentence "You've Received My Healing". This sentence persisted for very very long time. The word Received was particularly clear. 

I woke up and knew God had answered our prayers. Hallelujah!!! I wrote the following in my notebook:

I was elated the whole day. As with many promises/revelation from God, there are always confirmation. When someone "challenged" my conviction later, I waited for the confirmation. 



Mat 21:22  And all things, as many as you may ask in prayer, believing, you shall receive." 

Mat 21:22  你们祷告，无论求什麽，只要信，就必得著。 

God's Timely Help 上帝及时的帮助

The night before I could not sleep well. During that day, I heard something disturbing. My relatives were having some conversations and inadvertently they mentioned about my condition which I was not aware of. Though I tried to get rid of it from my mind, it came back later in the night. I woke up when the nurse took my blood pressure and temperature around 2am. My mind started to wander, it bothered my sleep. I tossed and turned (though the extent was limited due to the tubes attached to me), and it lasted through dawn.


I tried to read more on healing during the next day and kept on praying. My wife and I watched a VCD on divine healing received by a sister on colon cancer some 10 years back. A sister from the church had left it when they came and prayed for me. Many friends and colleagues has also came to give their morale support. My sister-in-law had brought many gifts, among them a desk-calendar type of daily prayer. This was what I read that evening when I turned to the page for Sep 16:

I decided there and then I should not let these thoughts bothered me. God's truth prevailed over whatever facts. I chose to believe in His absolute truth. Indeed the reading was timely help from God. Thank to Him, I managed to sleep well again that night.

John 14:6

 ⁶Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life..... "
John 8:32:

   ³²And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.

约翰福音：

14:6

耶 稣 说 ， 我 就 是 道 路 ， 真 理 ， 生 命 。。。。 8:32    你 们 必 晓 得 真 理 ， 真 理 必 叫 你 们 得 以 自 由 。

The 2 Angels 上帝·派遣了两个使者

Brother L and H were in front of me at my sickbed that afternoon.It was couple of days after my operation. They looked normal as any other folks, until they shared their stories.

Brother L is a survivor of cancer. He carries 2 pouches with him for 12 years now. He looked so cheerful though. He jokes that he has no need to queue for toilet. He told us that God has a special purpose in his life. God granted his wish to be a teacher (part-time basis) and also he volunteers in hospital. . He lives an active life, and looks fit and healthy. Above all, he has such a positive attitude. He is such an encouragement to me.

I　did not expect Brother H to visit me the second time in the hospital. He had just completed an appointment with NCC, and asked Sister Ong, the Snr Nurse at the ward, whether he could visit anyone at the ward. I felt so blessed to hear him shared his story. He has retired with a CPF withdrawal amount of mere S$4800, but he is one of the richest person I have seen. He was diagnosed with terminal cancer many years back. The doctor could not bear to break the news to him. He was however relaxed and asked the doctor whether he had the disease. Doctor nodded and told him unfortunately the cancer had spread to other organs. He still had the amazing courage to joke with the doctor. The doctor admired him, and related his courage to many colleagues. He was operated straightaway. Chemotherapy of the most direct form, which was attaching a ball like dispenser to his body was given. This allowed medication dripping into his body 24/7 basis. He survived the disease, and now he is encouraging people who are suffering. He gave practical tips on how to take care of oneself after the op.: 

how to move around, 

avoid lifting heavy stuffs for the first few months;

accepting the fact of life;

staying healthy through proper exercising etc.... He now climbs staircases to his 8-storey high flat. He does not look his age of later 50s. 

They are such wonderful testimony for the Lord, and I am so blessed to hear directly from them, witnessing their positive attitude, and their willingness to help others so selflessly. They are indeed like angels from God. Thank God for these 2 brothers that He sent. I am motivated to be like them.

手术后两天，L弟兄与H弟兄出现在我的病榻前。他们看起来与常人无异，直到他们分享他们的生命。

L弟兄是前癌患者。12年前他经过手术，身上带着两个袋袋。他还开玩笑说他不用跟人家争用洗手间。他分享说神如何照顾他，让他在他感兴趣的教学方面担任起兼职教师，另一方面他在医院担任义工。他认为这是神在他生命中特别的计划。他积极乐观的态度，健康的身心灵大大的激励了我。

我完全没料到H弟兄第二次的到访。他刚在NCC做过检验，就问O高级护士是否有人可探访的。第一次来访时他介绍了支援小组的工作，成员包括了年轻年长的。第二次他更多的分享他的生命。他说自己是个退休人士，55岁退休时仅仅领取了新币4800元的公积金。不过在我眼中，他是个最富足的人之一。他照顾妈妈，做义工，过健康的生活，信靠主。当年他被诊出处于癌症的最末期，医生不忍心通知他这消息。他却能处之泰然，知悉后还能跟医生开玩笑。医生佩服他的勇气，也跟许多同事分享。开刀后，他马上开始化疗，用的是最直接的接一个球状的点滴接在他身上，24小时的把药打进身体里。（医生后来说这是最少副作用的疗法）。他分享来许多如何照顾自己的提示：

1。 如何在走动时保护自己

2。 避免在手术后数月拿重物

3。 接受生活

4。 尽量保持健康的体魄

目前他生龙活虎地健康活着，每天爬8层楼到自己的房子。

能亲耳听到他们的分享，为主做见证，是多么有福的。他们无私的付出，乐观的精神，给了我莫大的鼓励。他们是主派来的天使。见贤思齐，我也要像他们一般，坚强，乐观，健康的出去分享。