My wife was anxious after receiving the call from the doctor. When I returned call around 9.15pm, the doctor urged me to get back immediately for an urgent operation. “Confirmed case”, he said. When I received the news, I was calm. I called home, my wife asked, “Why must it be you?” To which I reply, “Don’t ask why, just pray and believe everything will be fine”. I asked my wife to make arrangement for the flight back on next day, just to keep her mind occupied. I called my colleagues to tell them I needed to rush back.
After the calls, I went to the bathroom. Reality started to strike me. I trembled for over 10 seconds, was it fear, I was not sure. I knelt down and prayed. Immediately there was a great sense of peace over me. I was thankful that God that at instant had granted me that unspeakable peace. The night was challenging- in between short sleeps, I woke up. I started to pray, and pray on. The night went on between waking praying hours and some sleeping hours.
My wife and her brother was at the airport to fetch me directly to the hospital. Along the way, I told my teary wife to stay strong, and set example for the kids. Prior to that, her sister had helped to make appointment with Dr E, colon-rectal head of department at the hospital. He was kind enough to see me, despite not attending his clinic on that day. He explained all the x-ray photos, and made some preliminary examination. Immediately he arranged for colonoscopy to be performed. An operation was schedule on the following Monday, Sep 13.
From the beginning, I decided to overcome this crisis with the following rules( May God help me):
- Do not allow self-pity; do not blame God or others
- Adopt positive attitude
- Whenever possible, do things that I could and live normally
- Cherish family, friends, colleagues
- Pray, cast my worries to the Lord
- Above all, Trust in God for everything and His everlasting lovingkindness
Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything. Instead, in every situation, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, tell your requests to God.
4:7 And the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of respect, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if something is excellent or praiseworthy, think about these things.
This was reinforced later by Pastor during his Saturday sermon. "Let your mind filtered off things undesirable," he said.
whatever is true (reject lies, half truth, whatever facts that may be presented to you; believe God’s truth overrule all these and He has the ultimate say)
whatever is worthy of respect,
whatever is just, (do not be tempted to think of worldly ways which people get away with)
whatever is pure,
whatever is lovely, (think of positive stuffs)
whatever is commendable,
if something is excellent or praiseworthy, (think of excellence and things worthy to be praised, good deeds, kindness, love ),think about these things.
I need to train my mind, exercise it, direct it to think positively according to the living words of God.
On hindsight, there were many things I could be thankful for:
I decided to perform annual check earlier this year instead of leaving it to Oct;
The tremendous peace that I received from the Lord;
Supportive family and extended families， friends and colleagues
Many kind souls who helped a way of another etc....
Indeed thanks God for his grace!!
(中文打得太慢了，手写对我快捷许多了）
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《圣经腓立比书》
| 4:6 | 应 当 一 无 挂 虑 ， 只 要 凡 事 借 着 祷 告 ， 祈 求 ， 和 感 谢 ， 将 你 们 所 要 的 告 诉 神 。 | |||||||
| 4:7 | 神 所 赐 出 人 意 外 的 平 安 ， 必 在 基 督 耶 稣 里 ， 保 守 你 们 的 心 怀 意 念 。 | |||||||
| 4:8 | 弟 兄 们 ， 我 还 有 未 尽 的 话 。 凡 是 真 实 的 ， 可 敬 的 ， 公 义 的 ， 清 洁 的 ， 可 爱 的 ， 有 美 名 的 。 若 有 什 么 德 行 ， 若 有 什 么 称 赞 ， 这 些 事 你 们 都 要 思 念 。 |
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